I started a new vlog today and it took me nearly ten minutes to actually say what I meant to say. LOL. I don’t know if it’s just because I just woke up and the coffee hadn’t set in or I’m really just air-headed today.
Suffice it to say, that footage is probably a waste. I’m not really that worried about it, but it’s sort of symbolic of where my headspace is this week. I really need to get my shit together for this week. It’s not a super busy week, but it is busy. I’ve been working on a video about tracking writing productivity and time spent on various things and it’s been a bit of an eye-opener.
You know me. I’m always worried about what I’m not getting done and wondering why I manage not to have time to do certain things and working on the data for this video… It’s been pretty evident that I’m worrying needlessly about a lot of things. I won’t go deep into it, but I realized this week that I’m treating writing like a full-time job and I’m giving myself enough to do that would be a lot for someone who does it full-time.
But I have a full-time job. And it takes a lot of my time away from home and writing. So it’s sort of like I’m working two full-time jobs. So maybe… JUST MAYBE… this could be why I’m struggling. And maybe why some days, I wake up a little air-headed and my thoughts are a little muddy and hard to access at times.
I guess having these sort of realizations is one step in the right direction. Maybe I’ll be able to find a better balance now that I’m armed with the right information and data. Who knows? I really don’t. LOL.
But now it’s time to get back to work. There’s books to write, after all, and not a lot of time to do it in. (See what I did there? Haha.)