It’s the end half of September, which means I need to start planning next month. However, October is a new quarter, so I need to start planning for the last quarter of the year as well. I looked at my calendar, at the deadlines I set for myself, and I realized… none of that is actually going to happen.
The thing is… I don’t feel ready for this last quarter. I’m not where I wanted to be for the year. I’m stalled on Reapers 3 revisions… I’m completely blank for Reapers 4 to the point where I’m wondering if I should bother. I had grand ambitions of getting a Christmas story up this year, but that’s not going to happen. One look at my overdue deadlines and my current weekly schedule changed my mind about that.
Which leaves me wondering what I’m going to work on for NaNoWriMo this year. I’d planned this time into my schedule so I’d be writing for that month, but with the Reapers revisions looming over me, I’m not sure if I should.
I usually escape the stress of figuring out this part of my writing life by writing on the Bloodlines serial over on Patreon, and somehow, I’ve managed to gain about two months of backlogged content to post there because of that. LOL.
I really wanted to take it a little easy this year, especially since the holidays actually fall on my regular days off. I wanted to spend that extra time with family, not frantically trying to catch up to my own deadlines.
There’s a fantasy trilogy I want to write. I’ve got the entire story all ready to go in my head. I bet if I sat down and opened up a new document to write it, it would vomit itself on the page. So maybe, I’ll write that one for Nano?
I’ve held off to try to work on Reapers, but in all honesty, it’s just too hard to work on Reapers 3 right now. I think I’m associating too much stress with that book, so I’m going to take a step back from it, let it rest and try to forget the expectations I set for myself. Then maybe I can come back to it with a fresh attitude and get it done without wanting to tear my hair out.